Your Asian mom

I just realised it has become so ridiculous to learn how can a mother who gets pregnant for almost ten months to hate her own daughter later in life knowing that the latter has not fulfilling all the wishes. That include chasing own daughter out of the house during an argument, or uttering bad comments to irritate the child, and even worse caused injuries. Unfortunately, this has actually happened to my 25-year-old sister who was still staying with them at that moment. It was the day on which our grandmother passed away on the seventh day. Despite it fell on weekdays, most relatives spent time to return to hometown to offer prayers. However, sis didn't attend it as she wasn't a faithful Christian nor close to the 87th old woman. Mom was angry when she returned home found out that sis had actually spent the evening with her fiance as well as the newly bought puppy. Mom, who has been so active in church and almost earns the 'holiest' christian woman title in Sab

 I am still working despite due date is around the corner. Due to urgency calls every two hour, it has greatly affect my quality sleep. However, after 6am, I am able to sleep soundly. It usually so sound that I dream an attractive guy (who is not my husband cos I know he has left to work) cuddle me sleeping. Most of the time, those guys are okay to sort of 'love me' although I have a 38th week pregnant tummy size. Besides that, when I am awake, I would be thinking who will be the guy that I will have a fling with if husband is going to leave me in future? I am not sure whether it is considered as an infidelity action. A good wife shouldn't have those wild thoughts. Thinking that if Bree finds out I was being wild, she must be very disappointed and feel ashamed of me.

I am almost 39th week pregnant, and suddenly paternal grandmother who is 87-year-old passed away. I am not really close to her, but it is sign of respect to have the desire to pay her last visit. However, my Chinese husband and mom-in-law said "no pregnant lady should attend a funeral...." without saying the rational behind it. Mom and Dad said the same thing. Other friends told me that I just had to pray for her from home. If I insist going for the ceremony, I should have wrap my tummy with red/white clothes. That's spooky though. It gives me the idea that as my fetus is a partial human being, she might 'meet' grandma's soul. And, as I was told by dad that grandma wasn't really a nice person- as she didn't really treat others well. It is best that I listen to what people have been telling me to do. Anyway, grandma. I am not going to judge your past here. But, I do believe that the existence of Bree and I are because both of us had you. Res

I was and had always sleep soundly at night as I depleted source of energy during daytime. But last night, it was different. After husband and I came back from dinner, I had the surge, or also known as 'nesting' to clean up and arrange the house as much as possible and still feel fresh afterwards. As I was trying to sleep at about 1030pm, Bree kicked and positioned herself harshly. I wouldn't angry at her because she is just a 2.8kg fetus who wants to make herself comfortable without considering my comfort level. But she was doing that until almost 3am. And when she did it, my bladder was pressed and I had to pee immediately. Her aggressiveness had also caused right groin to hurt, and an episode of diarhea. Husband was around too that time, he suspected I was going into labor anytime cos he never see me like that. Half asleep, he timed my contractions, which the duration and frequency were quite regular. I assured him to continue his sleep and promised to alert if the

Above is the image of me pregnant at 38th week. It seemed like the baby has stop growing and progressively descend to be engage her head at where it is supposed to be (perhaps the opening of the os?) Because of that I have increase urge to pee almost every two hours or else the pressure will cause pain at my groin as well as the tummy itself. Yeah, it feels like the baby is angry  at me for being lazy to spare more room for her. Besides that, I am pretty sure something is going on of my body as nine hours of sleep is still inadequate for me. Ignore about the sleep quality. My body is tired and I hardly drag myself out of bed. Thus, the idea of going to work every morning really kills me. As it is fasting month, there are less assignment that require me to travel on foot for my work. It is not a good news for me. Staying and sitting almost the whole day in office has actually causing me having elephant feet, which fluid retain around ankles and digits. It feels very heavy and swol

It means that the "Bun in the Oven" is well cooked!!! Bree has reached the necessary maturity level for her all organs. However, I have yet show any sign of delivery which I am so anticipating as carrying this huge belly is not that fun although I started to gain attention or special treatment by public- people tend to let me their seats, speeding up business so that I don't have to wait long, and offer to top up petrol fuel and etc. A day before I reached 37th, I felt few gush of fluid  coming out from my vagina as I was driving back home. However, there's no contraction felt right after the feeling. However, husband was so worried when I re-confirm with him on the signs. When I reached home, he actually sniffed at me to sort of "differentiating" whether I was leaking urine or liquor. I checked in the toilet, it was odorless and clear fluid that wet the front part of my undies.Changed to new underwear and immediately washed the old one. Surprisingly,

There is another round of call to interview Pegawai Tadbir Diplomatik M41: I was one of the luckiest one to be called upon (two weeks in advance of the date via sms and email).  As it was my second invitation by the Public Service Commission, I had learned a lot from the previous and harsh experience so I was quite composed on that day.  Investing in a PADINI blazer priced at RM159 also boosted my confidence, though.  In addition to my previous notes which are available here. part I, part II and part III. Below are other things for future candidates to look for as one of the tips. Additional for the updated Malaysian cabinet lisdt. **of course, with the hot topic being debated on Trans Pacific Partnership Agreement . A well-prepared interviewee should have rough idea and of course own opinion on that. (I am glad my session was over as the topic is not as easy to understand as a whole). There were two interviewees-  One of them is the Public Service Commission deputy

Below are just random notes that I think a future-to-be administrative officer should know: 1. CUEPACS Congress of Union of Employees in the Public And Civil Services Kongres Kesatuan Pekerja-pekerja Dalam Perkhidmatan Awam President: Dato' Hj. Omar Osman objective- is to take care and also to watch out 1.2mil government servants(5 per cent of Malaysian total population 28mil). 2. SBPA Skim Saraan Baru Perkhidmatan Awam Public Service New Remuneration Scheme. - memberi kelebihan kepada pegawai atasan kerajaan sedangkan kakitangan bawahan menerima kenaikan yang rendah menyaksikan pendapatan ketua penjawat awam itu mencecah RM60,000 sebulan -Putrajaya terpaksa menambah RM2 bilion kepada RM2.6 bilion yang sebelum ini diperuntukkan di bawah SBPA -has been scrapped on March 8, 2012 by Prime Minister.  3. SSM Sistem Saraan Malaysia (SSM) -Kenaikan gaji sebanyak 7 peratus max. 4. This is one of the three or four salary scales in Public Service in Malaysia, JUSA

The crescent moon appearance on Monday (July 8) marks the beginning of holy month tomorrow for those who observe Ramadhan wholeheartedly. However, it could also become a disastrous period for those who observe those observers turning into monsters. My main concern will be the breaking fast rush hour which the hungry monsters driving recklessly on roads. After fasting for hours, they can't even think of abiding the rules. Some of them, including a close friend of mine, happened to curse an Indian driver for going back the same time as other muslims. For me, the utterance seemed to reflect that they are almighty because they had to fast the whole day..others are not allowed to be on the road. And, I would not be able to eat freely in office as some of them will feel offended. Should I have my meal in the toilet?or go to parking lot, switch on car aircond and have it there? Why would I? It really suppress my liberty in having normal life.  Their breaths are stink.  But

Earlier, I had promised myself to blog a few posts on my recent life events. However, things got bad and depressive when I had hypoglycemic and came back home found out that there was water disruption. Those had made me feel extremely uncomfortable..so I hitted the bed the whole time. Next day, there was still no water or sign that it was going to recover anytime within 24 hours. I decided to take shower and did all cleaning at parents' home- about 20 minutes drive from here. After the cleanup, mom told or more accurate giving excuses that she could not handle me during my confinement period.  She even gave me suggestion to call mom-in-law to fly over here to takeover the duty. flashback on few months ago, I was terribly irritated on mom in law who couldnt stop talking aka nagging that it almost blew out my mind, that's why I couldnt have her around immediately after I deliver. As I am going to go into delivery anytime, I do think that her last minute pull out was unacc